still

it's still outside right now. i can hear the hum of a plane, and someone who needs their muffler plugged, but just still. no birds at the feeder, tho feed is scattered about. no chippies wandering, or rabbits. the cat is staring at her litterbox, which i just refilled this morning. i should be showering.

*sigh* it seems like everyone is in the same state right now--verging on dormancy. i don't recall feeling like this last year, or the year before, or any before that, mainly because i adore winter. maybe it's my lack of contact w/ nature as of late. i know i ought to get out there but with this whole wedding thing and then this cold that just won't evacuate, i'm exhausted. i slept for a total of four hours last night. and then i was up every hour, on the hour. well, 338, 438, 538, etc. then i woke up at 706 and thought, the hell with it.

so what do i do, when i could be getting ready for a bang-up day at the office and get there *gasp* early? i load the dishwasher. check the weather (high of 70, low of 58) and clean the litterbox. i never did laundry last night, as intended, just glued my butt to the chair and paid bills. then got on my fave forum, and then surfed about lazily until1030.

i feel like i'm missing something. like i'm watching some part of my life go by--the plane humming, and i'm the bird feeder, half full and hanging, still even in the breeze.