still at work...

i'm still at work right now. blech. just waiting for a bunch of things to finish printing, etc. if they EVER finish i'm driving up to the excel energy center to meet sara (!) who i haven't seen in FOREVER to go to the duran duran concert. however in typical kim fashion i'm terrified that i'm not going to make it on time. providing that everything comes up roses i'm outtie and can make it on time...

in the mean time, i'm going to blog for a minute. or two. however long until i get paperwork. :P i didn't get a break this afternoon so this is it. pooh.

these last few days have been loooooong. aside from the daily grind of being back at work after vacation and the time during the day being sucked out through my head, which feels petty in comparison with world events, last night we found out about the shootings in red lake, and had a moment of panic when eero thought that his cousin still worked at the red lake schools. found out later she'd subbed there previously, but as of late, she's been working at another district. thank god. i had a flashback to when debbie and steve were still living in new york--the morning of september 11th--hearing about what was going on via second hand reports and the radio. i remember saying to someone that i was lucky, i didn't know anyone out there--and then realized that i did, and that i needed to call home. mom was home; steve and debbie were fine. but that moment of unsettling panic was just enough to make me queasy.

there's so many things that i think about when i recall those events, or any that mirror that morning--the curl of fear in my belly, the prickly feeling on my scalp, the heat rising to my cheeks before i cry. i don't like those moments, but in them, you feel so alive, so aware, just before that fog sets in.

gah! paperwork! must run!